Everything feels like its coming together. For the first time in a long time. More importantly, I feel it all, which is new. I'm not one to go through the whole personal breakthrough shit. but this is definitely a milestone. I'm starting at Florida Culinary Institute on Monday, and I'm absolutely dreading it with every overly excited fiber of my being. Its a beautiful feeling and I'm absolutely one hundred percent anxious about it at this point. After I get done with school, If I can leave south florida, I'm definitely gone. I'm excited for the things to come. One year from now and I'll be beginning my own life.
Its 4:47am and I feel absolutely terrible. I'm a lump in the house. I thought I would be fine with waiting until October 5th in order for me to finally become active and not just a stagnate little shit. I'm becoming increasingly more dissatisfied with my situation, I know that I'm just bitching and whining. But that's what livejournal is for. The only thing that's keeping me sane at the moment is the fact that I have little jobs here and there and everywhere. None of which are paying. My mom is really picking up in this whole business thing. Pretty soon I should be able to get my own food products out there. I'm catering a party for my sister's friend's birthday party in mid to late september. I'm getting a pretty decent amount of money for that. I don't know how much yet, seeing as how they haven't placed their order yet, but its a latin family. Yeah, no shortage of business there. And plus after that, my mother and I will be starting a dinner delivery thing for where my sister works, which will be a decent chunk of change weekly. In late september, There will be no shortage of work from then on, but my current problem is exactly that, current. Someone come rescue me from myself?
Current Music: Motherfucker=Redeemer (Part 1) by Godspeed You! Black Emperor
I haven't been on in ages. Its a mix between not having a computer and just straight up not thinking about lj. Life's changing, and that's all I can really say about it. I haven't done anything within the past year that has been worth mentioning. I've been at a complete point of total stagnation. I'm over it. October 5th is the start of my time at culinary school. I'm hoping to really get that ball rolling on a lot of things. September I get my tattoo, and also I have orientation for FCI that month as well. Its strange and exciting and sudden and expected and new and kind of what I've been needing for a while. I've been in the mood to finish that story that I started a while ago, but I just haven't mustered the inspiration to do so.
It's been so long since I've posted on my lj that I almost forgot it even existed.
not much has happened, other than I took my ged test. I'm hoping to start at MIU this october, even though I was supposed to start on the 12th of july. Seeing as how the test results take 10 weeks to come back, that idea was thoroughly shot in the anus. But anyways, I should be getting my own computer soon, so my posting frequency should increase.
Withdrawing from school, idk if its just for now or if its permanent. And the thing is my mom still doesn't know. She's going to be so upset. the last thing that I really want is for my mom to think of me as a total fuck up.
Current Mood: blank Current Music: Train - Goldfrapp
I HATE going to school with people who are a bit too close to family. If I miss a day, she questions me to no avail. And I can't tell her off because that would just open up a can of worms that doesn't need opening.
Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: nothing. fuck off
"While yet alive, before their tints had faded, they glistened like the fairest flowers, the product of primitive rivers; and he could hardly trust his senses, as he stood over them, that these jewels should have swam away." -Henry David Thoreau
Current Mood: happy Current Music: Fire It Up - Modest Mouse
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